Today is a bad day. I don't want to go anywhere, I don't want to do anything. I don't want to be here working, I don't want to help people, I don't want to read, or write, or think.
I think I've hit my wall. The wall against all the stress, the loneliness, the worries, the planning, the goals, the expectations, and the world entirely.
I just want to walk, and walk, and walk, and find somewhere to get lost.
Today is definitely a bad day.
Ahlan Wa Sahlan
About Me
- Molly
- I'm somewhere in my 20's, newly married to an Egyptian and learning to navigate the tricky corridor of meshing myself and my life completely into someone else and their life; although it helps immensely that he is the awesomest human being that I ever got a chance to call my own. I'm kind of obsessed with Islam, not in a stuff it down other people's throats way, but in a fuzzy-it-makes-me-happy sort of way, I go a bit nutty for palm trees, and I'm really just trying to figure out how this whole grown up life thing goes. And all in hijab.
What I'm reading now:
Religious Perspective
Learn to use it when it's needed
5 comments:
I understand, I have those days too. I recently just asked DH if he has ever thought of just packing up and walking away from all that we are into in WY. I sure have.
Insha'Allah you will be with your DH this summer and you will feel better.
I hate to use the boy girl thing... But boys just do better with this kinda stuff. They can live a wierd life if they are planning somthing, we are more in the moment and so it stresses us more. You feel like what you have now IS your life... Does that make sense? I mean we are nesting here and what are we suposed to do with no nest?
Instability is stressful for women. Insha'Allah you will be with your husband starting your own nest soon enough.
Agree with ummlayla.
Hope you feel better soon.
I think its just that I'm so eager to be there, and yet terrified, and so worried, and theres so much to do. I don't know. I'm just so tired.
As Salaamu Alaikum Dear:
I think it's natural; you are about to make a huge change in your life. Hang in there! Visualize the Egypt that you love! (and hubby, lol)
Hugz/Safiyyah
Aw Molly, I know those kind of days. I'm glad you're more recent post shows you're feeling better. Hang in there Molls.
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