Ahlan Wa Sahlan

Ahlan Wa Sahlan

Monday, April 21, 2008

Today

Today is a bad day. I don't want to go anywhere, I don't want to do anything. I don't want to be here working, I don't want to help people, I don't want to read, or write, or think.

I think I've hit my wall. The wall against all the stress, the loneliness, the worries, the planning, the goals, the expectations, and the world entirely.

I just want to walk, and walk, and walk, and find somewhere to get lost.

Today is definitely a bad day.

5 comments:

UmmLayla said...

I understand, I have those days too. I recently just asked DH if he has ever thought of just packing up and walking away from all that we are into in WY. I sure have.

Insha'Allah you will be with your DH this summer and you will feel better.

I hate to use the boy girl thing... But boys just do better with this kinda stuff. They can live a wierd life if they are planning somthing, we are more in the moment and so it stresses us more. You feel like what you have now IS your life... Does that make sense? I mean we are nesting here and what are we suposed to do with no nest?

Instability is stressful for women. Insha'Allah you will be with your husband starting your own nest soon enough.

janene said...

Agree with ummlayla.

Hope you feel better soon.

Molly said...

I think its just that I'm so eager to be there, and yet terrified, and so worried, and theres so much to do. I don't know. I'm just so tired.

Safiyyah said...

As Salaamu Alaikum Dear:

I think it's natural; you are about to make a huge change in your life. Hang in there! Visualize the Egypt that you love! (and hubby, lol)

Hugz/Safiyyah

Mona said...

Aw Molly, I know those kind of days. I'm glad you're more recent post shows you're feeling better. Hang in there Molls.